Bella Catherine

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So I wore my gay pride shirt to school today.

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pushingusintoselfdestruction:

And in chemistry class I was talking to my friend, Jack, about a gay pride festival I went to. My teacher, stupid nosy bitch, decides she wants to join in on the conversation. She asks me what I’m talking about so I turned around and her reaction was to make a noise of utter disgust. She asked me to go to the main office and get a different shirt. But being the rebel that I am, I told her very politely “no, if you don’t like it you don’t have to look at it. It’s my shirt, not yours, and there’s nothing wrong with it.” She told me again that I needed to change my shirt. I said again that I wasn’t and she told me she would have to send me to my administrator for direct disrespect. So I put on a big smile and packed my stuff up while she wrote the discipline report up.

But the thing that made me so happy that I didn’t give in and change was that as I was walking out the door a girl in my class stood up and started to walk with me. My teacher was kinda pissed and told her that she would get a write up if she didn’t sit down. And this girl, she is my fucking hero. She says: “Write me up then. It’s one more story that I can go home and tell my mothers. And I’m sure my girlfriend would love to hear it, too.” Then she smiled and walked out. I just felt the need to share what happened today with my lovely followers. 

too amazing not to reblog

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This Novemember 20th is Transgender Day of Remembrance, a day set aside to memorialize those who were killed due to anti-transgender hate and prejudice. The event is held in November to honor Rita Hester, whose murder on November 28th, 1998 kicked off the “Remembering Our Dead” web project and a San Francisco candlelight vigil in 1999. Rita Hester’s murder — like most anti-transgender murder cases — has yet to be solved.

The Transgender Day of Remembrance serves several purposes. It raises public awareness of hate crimes against transgender people, an action that current media doesn’t perform. Day of Remembrance publicly mourns and honors the lives of our brothers and sisters who might otherwise be forgotten. Through the vigil, we express love and respect for our people in the face of national indifference and hatred. Day of Remembrance reminds non-transgender people that we are their sons, daughters, parents, friends and lovers. Day of Remembrance gives our allies a chance to step forward with us and stand in vigil, memorializing those of us who’ve died by anti-transgender violence. [tdor.org]

I urge my followers, and the followers of those who may have reblogged this to tint your icon purple on Novemeber 20th in honor and support to those who are transgender and to pay respects to those who have passed because they were simply being who they are. I think too often the T is thought of separate from the LGBT, but in reality we are all equal and we are in this life together, side by side.

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So true.  I never have felt as vulnerable as when i told my girlfriend about my being transgender.  Even though I knew she would accept me, I was still scared shitless.

So true.  I never have felt as vulnerable as when i told my girlfriend about my being transgender.  Even though I knew she would accept me, I was still scared shitless.

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Hormones! So Excited, But Terrified.

So i finally talked to my doctor about starting hormones. And he was super supportive about it all. He said that he would look into things some more for me and give me a call. Im so excited that I may finally get what i want. 

However, through this excitement comes out the terror.  I am legitimately terrified.  What if i change my body, and then after all the changes am unable to pass as either sex and thus am doomed to a life of harassment.  I recently watched “A Girl Like Me: The Gwen Araujo Story” and saw what happened to her.  And she was even pretty convincing? I dont know anymore. I feel like I can deal with harrassment but there are so many other things that terrify me about all of this. 

I was talking to my friends, this group doesn’t know about my identity. and posed a hypothetical.  I said “If i were to tell you i were transsexual and about to transition, would you still be my friend”  Some of course said yes but a large number said no.  Which leads me to my next fear.  What if i transition and am ostracized from everyone. I cant imagine that that would actually happen but what if? 

I really want to begin transitioning so that i can be free to act like i truly am instead of putting up this facade all the time. 

Oh, and finally my worst fear.  that my number one advocate and my best friend will forget about me as we go off for college. She is so supportive but because we plan on breaking up for college, and college is when i plan on starting the full transition, im afraid that i will truly be alone. Away from family, and without my best friend. 

Shit.  I am truly terrified about all of this.  Im doing a pros and cons to the entire idea of transitioning.  And I cant decide whether or not to do it.   I mean other than being unhappy with my gender identity…which mind you is a huge deal…I have a very good life right now, and it seems like everything is going to change soon.  Im so scared right now.  I dont want everything to change at once.